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Punkin….my ‘lil Punkin…Punky Brooster, my Bugger. I brought him home in July in 1994 a scared and skittish barn kitten from my mother’s house. Slowly we got to know one another and he kept me company these last 17 yrs.
Today, we took that final ride to the vet. He once was a fat cat of 18 lbs at one time but old age has taken its toll. Today he barely weighed in at 8lbs. I described his recent behavior and the doctor nodded with an understanding look of concern as he stroked his head and scratched behind his ear to put him at ease. Some of that concern was for Punkin and some I think was for me. He said senility had set in along with varying health issues too far gone to address. I assumed he was still talking about Punkin but I honestly wasn’t sure. I felt old and tired myself. He said I could leave, I didn’t have to stay…But as I have said before, no one should die alone. Not even a pet. In spite of that belief, I wanted to bolt out of that exam room door, run to my car and not look back, but I forced my feet to the floor, locked my knees and stayed. I owed him for all the nights he crawled in next to me. For all the times he stayed next to me when I was sick or just flat broken-hearted. For all the times he woke me up with a nudge and a loud cry because I was late for work and HE wanted my pillow. He, like almost all animals loved unconditionally. There were no rules, no restrictions or compromise. Just love and appreciation. Give and take.
I held him tight as a sedative was given, then a few minutes later the final injection to stop his heart. For a cat that was known for how loud he could be, he never cried, not once. This time I was the loud one.
I came home tonight to “Punkin patches” of silver fur still clinging to carpet and chairs. I have looked up several times thinking he was on my feet. But a quick glance confirms he is gone.
People have so much to learn from the SIMPLER beast. If we could just master that one thing they seemed to have perfected eons ago, unconditional love, then the world would truly be Heaven on Earth. Put aside the “IF”S, AND’S or BUT’S ” and just love. Can you do it?
I can try.
I love each and every one of you, unconditionally tonight
Prayers and angels for my Punkin tonight.
Juliana
Diary of a MAD * FAT * WOMAN..... 
I am so sorry for your loss. He was a most beautiful member of your world – your family. May you have many fond memories in the days to come.
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Oh, honey, I’m so sorry. That is such a hard thing to do. Thinking about you and keeping you close tonight, and loving you unconditionally right back.
M
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Juliana, I am so very sorry. What a beautiful post. Your family, your best friend. RIP Punkin.
xxxxxooooo,
~Jill
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beautiful Julia….tears in my eyes.
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Oh my God. I am devastated for you. I can’t even fathom how hard that was. :((((
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I shared this. It us beautiful and I love you. The level of your loss is evidenced in the immense joy this amazing creature brought your life. We are blessed by these wonderful beings.
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Awww, J – I am so sorry. Some tears for you and Punkin right now. That was a beautiful tribute.
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So sorry. My heart hurts for you my friend. RIP Punkin.
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Oh Huli. My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry. I know you know deeply the love that won’t die, & his visits will still come when you are sleeping in & late for work. I promise. I love you sista!
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Your post reminded me of all the pets I’ve loved in my life and all the times I helped them cross the “Rainbow Bridge” on their final journey. It’s heartbreaking but, you’re right, we owe those sweet companions at least that much for their love and loyalty. And I truly believe they are comforted by our presence on that final day. I’m so sorry for your loss. ~ D.
RAINBOW BRIDGE
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food and water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing: they miss someone very special to them; who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. The bright eyes are intent; the eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to break away from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster. YOU have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
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Angels around you….again…..dear Huli! So very sorry for you loss. Keep your memories close to your heart and Punkin will be there. Love you so!
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